First head tonsure experience - Women headshave

An experience from a female reader:

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I'm married female and had a vow to get tonsured in thirupathi,Lord Balaji Temple in India. Twelve years had passed and I don't have a courage to get tonsured. whenever I visit thirupathi, get panic when I see tonsuring ladies and their looks and cut a small length of hair . And finally the moment came which I couldn't post pond, so I have to get ready on October 31,2014 Friday noon train to thirupathi. We were not able to do any advance booking for accommodation or darshan as we decided to go to thirupathi on prior day. So tension started from the day and mind was boggling with post tonsure appearances. I was controlling my mind not to think about anymore as I'm going to fulfill my vow. I felt whatever to be presented to God it should be done wholehearted, so I want to make myself comfortable and cool and carry on the schedule. Me and my husband reached thirupathi by 1am and it was raining .We waited in cottage complex near to railway  station till 3 am for bus to thirumala. We went to thirumala by bus and reached around 4am and it was heavily pouring and very chill. As we didn't book for accommodation we have to wait till 6am for cottage booking and finally got a cottage in complex.  We settled in room and had tea and my husband told that as it was Saturday there would be rush so  we will first finish your head tonsure and go for darshan and we will go for nose piercing (my mother-in-laws wish). In that complex itself in ground floor there was head tonsuring hall and he told that he will get the tonsure ticket and darshan time inquiry and get back  so asked me to get ready by until he's back. To be honest, I started to panic and somehow I moved to hall with my husband and waited in line. There was not even single lady in line for tonsuring, only males and moms carrying their babies. There were only four barbers so they allowed only four people at a time. so I have to wait for nearly half an  hour as there were 20 people before me in line. The line was moving slowly but my panicking was developing super fast. My husband told don't get tensed it will be over by 5 minutes, need not worry, you will look good. The last person before me went in and gate keeper asked me  to wait for next turn. Behind me was all small toddlers. My moment came and gate keeper lady allowed me to enter the hall and asked me wet my hair and go to the barber. I removed the flower, loosened the plait and drenched my hair and went to barber. The barber told me 'koochondamma'(to sit) and asked 'gundu' or 'cut'. I told him gundu(tonsure). He asked to sit properly. The final moment came, my heart was pounding and there was no turn back. Within 5 minutes my hair will be gone and will be bald. Even though I thought I should be cool the final moments filled me with mixed up emotions, stressed out due to fear, felt like crying and also felt happy that finally I'm fullfilling my vow. Barber poured a mug of warm water and massaged for even wetting. he again poured another mug of water .i was confused and thinking does head tonsure need this much of water? funny thought! He asked me the new blade and my hubby gave the blade to him.when i saw the blade my mind thought do i have courage to carry this process.another mind told it's ok come on  u can do it. I put a full stop for my mind boggling and told myself yes u can and have to keep myself  calm. Barber parted my hair into two portions from forehead to back and secured the two portions separately with two bands. He put the new blade in knife and asked me to bend down fully. He pulled my head down and in middle of crown he scrapped a little hair and put down in front of me. Ohh god I freeze . He started right side of head  to scrap srrrukkk, sruukkk  from back and came to front and continued scrapping till fore head. One bunch of hair felled on my right side on floor. Now I was sitting one side bald and other side with hair. I was seeing the staring looks of ladies. My hubby was smiling at me.barber asked me turn the left head towards right direction. he bent my head downwards and started scrapping from back and continued to fore head, left side of bunch hair felled on my lap. I took the hair and placed on floor. He again scraped  all left over hair from fore head, side of ears and at back of neck. Barber said it's over, now u can get up. My hubby looking me bald for first time and smiled at me and told "You don't look ugly as I thought and its different and good". I felt staring looks but i didn't mind as it was over. we got ready for darshan and applied sandal wood paste and washed off.when ever it was breezy I felt cool and chill. We went for free darshan and waited for half an hour and got photo metric entry for 10pm at night and came out as it was noon. we have to wait till 10pm for darshan so we decided to finish my nose boring and approached the inquiry and ear boring was shifted to Purohit Sangam. As we went by noon there were only few to get bored,that too children. oh god children were screaming extreme.ear boring pro didn't mind about their screaming and were very much concentrated in finishing their job. We bought the pay ticket and went to boring room. The boring professional asked me sit and got the nose stud and unscrewed it and said this was reverse type, as it was diamond nose stud the top has screwing. So first top screw stud will be inserted and and again down part need to be inserted in screw stud and pulled upwards so it will pain a lot and u may bleed also, so he told that he will insert the thin gauge kambi(wire) which has sharp edge can be twisted as ring and after a week u can cut that ring and put the diamond stud. I agreed and he marked on my right nose and prayed to god. I was bit tensed by seeing one inch length kambi as it may hurt much. He held my right side of nose and asked me to be calm as it gets over by few seconds. I closed my eyes as I don't like to see syringes or needles even when I was in hospital. He held tightly and pricked sharp kambi inside my nose and pulled outside of nose and twisted both ends with pliers and finished his job withing two minutes. It was hurting bit but not that much as I thought. When I looked at me mirror with smooth shining head and nose ring I felt different, comfortable and pretty. I was feeling happy and my confident level boosted due to my head shaving experience. If I can do it anyone can do it. This is what I felt.
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